The Bliss Of Authentic Knowledge
"They will brain-wash you for sure"
"This is a 'new' methodology. Stick to what your grandparents followed"
"A girl should never learn more. It will lead to fitnah"
These were the comments i got from my family when i told i wanted to study under madani shaykhs.
they feared i will 'change'.
The words "authentic scholars, authentic knowledge, Aqeedah" was new to them, as much as it was new to me, back then.
I was in the dilemma of a high school girl. I was confused what stream i should choose. I was under peer pressure to choose a secular stream. Studying the deen was never appealing to my friends.
"Choose a stream with a promising career", my friends said.
My cousins were all put into "not so authentic" madrasas. I was torn between the two worlds.
Atlast, by the grace of Allah, (and lots of convincing words to my parents that i will never change from my 'taqleed' ideology, no matter what), alhamdulillah i found myself sitting before *shaykh Abdussalam*. I was taught Aqeedah, Arabic, and usools of other subjects. My base was being built. Slowly, but strongly.
Meanwhile my cousins who got into other madrasas and were trained to pray, do collective dhikr, read quran. Lots of practice under a gong of bell and a timetable. But no therotical knowledge. No aqeedah. No basics. Just in few months people told "how much my cousins were practicing but i seldom changed".
Little did they know that it did not work that way with our shaykhs. Little did they know, only a feeble mushroom sprouts in one day's rain. Whereas a banyan tree takes years to grow, grows slow and steady, and lasts many decades. Our shaykhs molded us right from the basics. They needed time to shape us. To shape us from playful girls into *strong-women with the right thoughts. Right manhaj. Right aqeedah.* They taught us more than what was in the syllabus. They molded *our attitude. Our behaviour. Our dressing.* My thirst for knowledge increased day by day, and with more knowledge came "the putting into practice" part. I realized the difference between practicing out of my own will and doing them "with a timetable and gong of a bell".
Now i know why there was differences between the scholars or imaams. Now i know if *taqleed* is right or wrong. Now i know who the *salaf-us-saalih* are.
I realised, lots of knowledge to a woman is *NOT A FITNAH*. I was taught the examples of *Fathima al Fihriyyah* (the founder of the first university ever in this world).The example of *Aysha r.a* who taught 70 of the sahabas and was an expert in inheritance. I was taught the delicate skill of balancing my family life with deen. The skill of *zuhd*. The skill of being in the *middle path of ahlussunnah wal jama* without going to extremes.
I could sense a lot of difference between learning under authentic shaykhs and being under other madrasas. There i was frowned upon for asking a lot of questions (to which they never had the right answers).There was a lot of beating around the bush. It never felt right. But here, our madani shaykhs always answered us patiently to every dumb question we shoot them with. Infact, the more we were taught, the more we were told to contemplate and question. It was never a one way "bayaan". The classes were interactive.
Each session with the shaykh turned out to be an eye opener. I was shocked how much of history has been kept hidden from us. All this *history* is never taught in other aalima courses ive seen. They think women can never handle this much knowlege. Learning about all the sects, i slowly understood what was wrong. My cloud of skepticism faded. Each jig zaw puzzle perfectly fit into eachother.Truth was apparent from falsehood.
As i finished my 3 year islamic course,under the guidance of *shaykh Abdussalam*, iam now left with new set of questions.
*Why dont people stick to authentic scholars? The authentic knowledge. The understanding of the sahaba. Deen, in its purest form. Unaltered. Why should people blind follow without any proofs?* Didnot Allah swt say in the quran,
"Produce your proof, if you should be truthful" (2:111)
I end my article with the hadeeth,
Abud-Dardaa (radyAllaahu ‘anhu) reported: “I heard the Messenger of Allaah (sallAllaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam) say: ‘Whoever treads a path due to which he seeks knowledge, Allaah will make him tread one of the paths towards Paradise. And the angels lower their wings out of contentment for the seeker of knowledge. And verily all those in the heavens and in the earth, even the fish in the depths of the sea ask forgiveness for the scholar. And verily, the virtue of the scholar over the worshipper is like the virtue of the moon on the night of Al-Badr over all of the stars. Indeed, the scholars are the inheritors of the prophets, for the prophets do not leave behind a dinar or a dirham for inheritance, but rather, they leave behind knowledge. So whoever takes hold of it, has acquired a large share (i.e. of inheritance).’”
With my esteemed shaykh *Abdussalam madani* starting this new college *Aspire*, i expect a lot of sisters to benefit from him, and taste the bliss of authenticity.
May Allah swt give us all the understanding of deen. Ameen.
- Aysha Wafira, Student of Sheikh Abdus Salam
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